Sometimes it's hard to recognize the changes I've made while inside of myself. I feel I see the world a certain way, and sometimes it's hard to express that view. I put so much pressure on myself to do things right, to make things happen, to perceive something like someone else. I either forgot, or just didn't know how to let go.
Photographing this family session in Salt Lake City last week meant a lot to me. I needed a chance to release the stress that I was feeling from traveling, and being surrounded by so many people all at once. I needed an opportunity to say "no" to myself, and to know what it felt like to slow down. I wanted things to flow, and to embrace the messy (but really like not so 'messy' because Cate has the cleanest, most adorable home). I worry so much what other people are thinking; They wonder what I'm doing, what I'm thinking, if I'm doing something wrong, if I'm doing something weird. It was a step to be free. It was a step to forget.
This is Cate, Kyler, their son Jett, and their daughter Winnie. (Those names are too good though, am I right?) They owned a farm with lots of land, but decided to downsize their lives when Jett was diagnosed with Autism. They sold their large home, their vehicles, and made the move to Utah so that Jett could attend a wonderful school for children like him.
Family is so important.
There's so much that happens every single day. So much that distracts us from what's going on in front of us. As a person that is constantly multitasking, and trying to handle mom life, business life, day job life at the same time, all the time, I love what Cate and Kyler did to keep their family close together, and the huge changes they made for their son. It hits home, and is inspiring to me because it's not an easy thing to do. But damn, are they happy!
Photographed using Contax 645, Portra 400 film. Canon 1v, Tri-X film pushed one stop. Processed and scanned by The Find Lab.